Saturday, September 29, 2012

Busyness Steals the Will of God for our lives

I haven't had a relaxing day for a long time.  My only obligation was soccer at 1130.  It was warm but the clouds came out just as the game started!

We also took Eevee to the dog park in Sandoval, which we might do again tonight.  I have been thinking all week (as I run around with a chicken with my head cut off) that God keeps pointing out busyness is the robber of life.  It steals our time.  How many people (or friends) never "have time to go to church", read the bible, join a bible study to learn God, take their children to the park (or their dog to the dog park)...this is life.  Not shopping, cleaning(yeah- I'm off the hook), obsessing about our looks, paying bills, grocery shopping, cleaning out emails, ...

2 Corinthians 10:5NIV--"we demolish arguments and every pretention that sets it self up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to God"

Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world;but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind,that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable and perfect will of God

Business robs of our time to be with those that matter, to be present when we are, to have patience for what we should have patience for...we are fooled into thinking so many things are so much more important than they are...When do we FEEL love? in our moments of peace.  If we never have them, we will never experience love.

But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.1 Corinthians  13:3

I want my life to be mine to be moments of having peace throwing a stick at the dog park, off we gow...

Friday, September 28, 2012

God needs nothing from me!

I enjoy somehting that requires me to daily engage.  Not that I don't want to but there are so many want to and have tos that it focuses my efforts.  I look forward to seeing the changes God brings to my life and patience over the next 6 weeks.

I am very aware of the fact that my business keeps me from feeling and hearing God a lot.  I'm so caught up in my'HAVE TOS'   that I unfortuantely never make it to what I REALLY have to daily.  and that is to prioritize my time to studying God before any other thing that SEEMS to take precidence.

Melissa Taylor's unglue bible study is fun.  Chapter two talks about perspective-- I feel like as I am typing (isn't funny how when you realize somehting you feel sort of silly for it seeming ly like a revelation in the first place??  I mean you already know it but  it just hasn't landed) I feel like I am being made to realize  my perspective on my daily time with God needs to change-  God does not need me to spend time learning and knowing HIM.  I can't prove anything!!!  I need to have the perspective taht I NEED IT, not him.  I DO NOT need to make HIM and item on a list.  I need to allow him to direct my list!!!!

Daily God make me realize you don't need me for anything.  You don't need me to do anything.  You want for me out of your love for me. period.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Unglued-finding another way

boy there are days when it is hard!   Inf act there really seem to be few days that are easy.  I started (no too well a blodg afew months ago but life gets so busy.  I wrote an entry saying i'd try related to the is where eto be found.

But I am determined to not let LIFE rule mine...  I love knowing I'm not the only one who loves going to church bible study learning about God , encouraging others to allow for a relationship with God but in the midst of a chaotic, discombobulated , running late morning , or a mid day call from the school to come and assist with my  (suprise) poorly controled child- that (i say bad words.very bad)....and then feel like poop afterewards.  

At my best (worst) moments I liken myself to Chevey Chase in Christmas Vacation....where' the Tylenol??!

I love the idea that this part of me can be changed!!  I am ready God!!!

It's so good to realize my Jekel and Hyde personality is not alone and a pray my and the others working towards this,perservere through all the business and chaos of life.

Doiing the blog for me is a way to be outwardly accountable to try to prioritize ans stick to this study (as I sit in my pajamas, when someone will be arriving to my house with in 15 minutes (and my child is still in bed))  BUT THIS HAS TO BE A PRIORITY not an after thought.  

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Well I will try again-  I decided it would coincide with doing the"unglued' online bible study and what a perfect chance to practice, drawing my line in the sand a little further ( or redrawing after June)...  Coming unglued... I wonder if the book that I just started  is going to more specifically guide on what to write/blog.  My goal in doing this is (going to be embarrasing!) to be transparent and to confess...  I do confess to the girls I work with but definitely mornings do not always bring out the most Jesus-like behavior and very sadly my son has heard way too many "fbombs" (hiding in all lower case) in my tirade.

But I AM GOING TO BE BETTER.  I want to not hypocritically tell my child to have self control and make good choices when I clearly am not doing so myslef!  God please help me to have more self control and patience....

Tonight i was racing trying to get to my study , haven't had a seconde sunday monday and now... I demand from my self to give this the committment it deserves.  Not to put pressure bu too realize  everything is better/clearere when spending time studying God's words and way

Help me stay focused God...I loved doing 40 days in the word and barely missed a day.